When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!!!

life keeps on throwing one situation after the other which u feel u will not be able to handle...

comes a time when u feel "I've had enough!" i wont be able to take more...

comes a time when u feel like just giving in...

comes a time when u actually want to escape from the situation.. but escape is not possible!

comes a time when u feel hopeless, dejected (by HIM), unloved, uncared for...

comes a time when all your faith shatters to pieces...

comes a time when u feel u never exsisted (coz what do u do if your exsistence in itself is giving pain???)...

comes a time when u want to ask the creator, that why did HE create u - (only to take the sufferings???)...

comes a time when u start feeling jealous (not in my nature to feel jealous, so its a BIG thing for me to get those vibes)...

comes a time when u actually feel the tremble inside u - (shivering with fear thinking "Now what to do"???)...

THEN... HE INTERVENES...

he intervenes, not by magically finishing all your problems...

not by swaying HIS magic wand and making you happy again... beaming with happiness...

not by making u die and releiving you of all this pain...

BUT... BY GIVING YOU THE STRENGTH...

by giving you the strength HE shows that HE cares...

by making you tough he shows that though HE has given you the problem, but HE is there - WITH U... to GUIDE you through it...

by providing you the strength HE acts as your father... "in the name of the father...." (just a reminder of the prayer i say daily)...

BUT oh my lord... though i know u r there with me to guide me, u r seeing i sail through this unhurt... but still it hurts my lord!

It hurts when i feel you are care for me less and more for others... i feel sad that my lord u did not pay heed to my prayers...

Oh lord... i have been your dutiful child... not hurt anyone intentionally.. taken care of fellow beings as my own brothers n sisters... kept others' happiness above mine - in many instances even if it cut my heart! still my lord.. i listened to my heart and i did what i felt was desired by those i loved - without even considering my self interest! not even mentioned my pain n sorrow to anyone!

i know its not right to ask anything in return for what one has done.. but my lord.. was it too much if i asked health for my own child??? he is a small kid my lord! ur child too!!! couldnt he have been spared???

I have full trust and faith in YOU! yesterday i felt weak... i cried... cried hopelessly... thinking - Now what? But i know YOU are there.. there to guide me.. there to protect my child...

Show me the way... guide me through this! MAKE ME TOUGH! give me the strength... I need you ONLY YOU my lord to sail out of these troubled waters!!!

I wish my child comes out hale and hearty out of this situation.... AMEN!

Im keeping up my faith GOD... "whatever happens is for the good"! and that you yourself will provide me the strength to fight it out! You will make me tough now that you have made the going tough!!!